Renewal is On a Roll

Cleaned the kitties' water bowls and food bowls yesterday morning. No small task since it also involves taking apart and thoroughly cleaning their little water fountain. Then I ran a bunch of errands, culminating in a consultation with my new oral surgeon. The Tooth has got to go, we all agree. As we studied the X-ray, he showed me in great detail why. He listened to me, bless his heart. That's the most important thing. The upshot is that the tooth with be removed, in pieces, next Tuesday while I (ta-da!) am totally out cold under general anesthesia. I'm scared to death. Don't know why. I've had teeth removed, while awake, 2 or 3 times. I've been under general anesthsia at least 6 times now. But, I'm scared. Still, I feel somewhat relieved now that the decision is made, the date set, and I've met the dentist and his nurse.

Afterwards I saw Natalie Portman in _Black Swan_. I have a mixed reaction to the movie itself, but I relate to Nina's need to be perfect, which quickly led to her mental breakdown and suicide. I so suffer from that damned perfectionism, too. I'm remembering something Anita Myer, a wonderful weaver, always says -- that if you don't fail at least half the time, you aren't taking enough risks. I like to think of it as, "If I don't f--- up at least once in awhile, I'm not trying hard enough." Which is, of course, a more stressful way to think of it. More perfectionist. Still, it helps.

I'm also doing a little work with _The Crafter's Devotional: 365 Days of Tips, Tricks, and Techniques for Unlocking Your Creative Spirit_ by Barbara R. Call. This is cool. It's what prompted me to drag and and re-energize my Big Black Art Journal Monday. I skipped yesterday. Not ready to tackle yesterday's entry and too busy with the dentist anyway. Today I get to drag out my Lion King and Bambi coloring books, my crayons, and just color! Cool. Works right in with continuing studio organization and de-cluttering.

Back to work/play!!